Firstly what is BPD?
Bpd stands for borderline personality disorder and is quite common. With a high rise of 4million people having the condition. That’s 1.6% of the population.
Signs of BPD
•intense fear of abandonment •A pattern of unstable relationships •Rapid changes in self identity and self image •Impulsive and risky behaviour such as unsafe sex, gambling, reckless driving etc. •Suicidal threats or behaviour of self harm. • Wide mood swings lasting a few hours or days. • Ongoing feelings of emptiness
So how do I cope with this and BPD?
So firstly I take medication regularly. If I forget one tablet it can be a tough day for me and Isla. Which includes feeling not enough for her. Secondly if I do feel like my mental health is dipping I contact my GP and explain this is due to me being a mum and have to be 100% for her. Thirdly I listen to music or cuddle my baby girl and instantly feel okay again. This has been really tough to handle even before I had Isla. Each day gets easier and better. Some days I want to stay in bed and others I am so energetic. So if you do know me personally and I give you mixed emotions please don’t come at me I literally cannot help it. I am managing my mental health every day and on top of that I’m a single mum trying to give Isla the best life possible. I also have my mum who’s my biggest supporter ever. She’s kept me safe from all the bad that’s happened in the past. Lastly I film myself how I feel and what I want to say even if I cry then I store that video in a folder and keep it there but that’s only on a really bad day.
So how have I managed with COVID & BPD?
This was the whole point in my blog. I wanted something to Focus on. Since blogging I’ve felt so free in my body. If my mental health does dip I have my parents to talk to which most people don’t have and I’m so grateful for that. I want to start getting into writing to write my feelings away.
Next steps???
Now I’ve opened up on my background I’m hoping this spreads awareness. If you have any of the possible symptoms of BPD please go to your GP. It’s important to manage your mental health and I can’t stress enough I am here If you ever needed to talk.
Mental health & me 