Early mornings

7am and I’m up already. Even Isla has had her breakfast. I must admit I’m not used to these early mornings yet 🤣.

Or maybe it’s the fact I didn’t sleep til 2/3am. Probably that to be honest.

We have absolutely no idea what we are doing today yet. No plans whatsoever. Which reminds me I need to update everyone about yesterday🥺

I ended up having the best day with my family we never had a bbq in the end. Ended up with takeaway (can’t go wrong there😉) & a few cheeky cocktails 🍹. Absolutely enjoyed myself 🙌🏼

Well that’s me done for the morning Islas crying for her mummy. Will update everyone on our plans this afternoon.

Hope you’re all well😘😘

Officially day one💪🏼

Day one of my blog. Me and Isla-Mai have been up since 7am. She’s had her breakfast and been watching her programmes.

Today mummy has to sort a few things out then we will be having our first BBQ. So exciting 🙌🏼.

I will be updating you all about our day at 7pm! You know how it is…. doesn’t always go to plan 🥺.

The birth.

3 horrible days of pain and exhaustion. I thought I couldn’t do it. I cried. I screamed. I even tried giving up. But I couldn’t. It was all worth it.

This is how it all began.

I was 37+6 and Isla-Mai stopped moving I panicked I cried and I rushed myself to the hospital. They hooked me on the monitor and admitted me for an emergency scan the next day.

The next day came and I went for my scan where she still didn’t move but her heart was perfect so they suggested to induce me that day. I was so scared I almost sh** my pants 😂.

So they start the induction and inserted a tablet to start me off. WELL my body wasn’t ready for this. Instead I reacted to the tablet badly contracting every min but not progressing. Luckily I had my mum there for support. I already just wanted it to be over with 😔. I was only at 1cm dilated I just knew a long road a head of me was approaching. They ended up having to take the tablet out and re start in the morning.

The next morning came they gave me a sweep and checked me a few hours later I had only literally progressed 1cm 🥴. So now I’m at 2cm. They inserted a different type of tablet. They made a plan to break my waters when I reached 4cm and to put me on an epidural. So I bounced away on my birthing ball had long walks and I finally reached 4cm BUT I dehydrated and ended up having to put a drip on me. My body was reacting so bad to the tablet again I was crying for the epidural I couldn’t bare it no more.

They rushed me to the delivery suite and hooked me on the epidural.

They then broke my waters and then began active labour. 12 hours later I’m at 10cm dilation. TIME TO PUSH!!

I was pushing BUT Islas head got stuck so they had to rush me to the theatre and I ended up having forceps. Just as I threw up I look up and my beautiful baby girls here. Weighing 7lb 2oz on the 12/02/2020 at 02:50am

IM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU BABY ☺️💕

Stressed mama I see you👀

Yes we all have one of them days where we want to shut ourselves away. Feeling bad? Well don’t …..& I know you’re nodding your head and now you’re smiling to yourself because you know I’m right. We’ve got this mama. Some days being a single mum isnt easy but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

Some days I wish I could have my little family and I wish things were different but you know what I got my little girl and I know it’s going to be okay.

I don’t even know why I’ve decided to start blogging I guess it’s because I just need to let it all out 😔.

On the 12th Feb 2020 my beautiful baby girl came into this world and my life flipped upside down…

This is a blog about how it all began ☺️